Friday, August 17, 2012

I'll Come Find You

My mind today is sure going. Thoughts just keep flooding in. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that I went to an angels brunch. A brunch with all women I have met after I lost Kamber and they have lost a child also. We don't meet all that often. We try really hard to meet every 6 months. There is a special connection. One that has come  because of the road we travel in life. I really don't think any of us would have met had we not lost a child. A friendship we would all give up to have our kiddos back with us. But here we are, friends! I love these girls and that love for them just comes natural for me. I can see them for who they are and know them more than what's on the outside. Maybe because we are so vulnerable, losing a child will do that to you. It literally brings you to your knees. Each one of these ladies has been on there knees or flat on the floor for that matter because of the pain, we all know the pain.
I've never officially said on my blog what religion I am, but hopefully by reading my blog you already know that I'm a Mormon. One of the things that we believe is that we lived with our Heavenly Father and Mother before we were born. We believe that we were spirits before we came to this earth and that we are spirits when we leave this earth. We resided in a heavenly home and we are all brothers and sisters. We knew eachother before we came to this earth. I believe some of us knew eachother really well and others we didn't. So as I was thinking today after my brunch with these ladies, the thought came to me "I'll come find you." What if I knew these women before we came to this earth. Maybe I knew them well or maybe I didn't. Maybe we knew before that we were going to lose a child. If we did, maybe we told eachother "I'll come find you." I believe we knew life was going to be hard. I don't know that we knew what our trials on earth were going to be. Maybe we knew we were going to travel the same roads in life that were not going to be easy, therefore we would find eachother to help us down this road. Or maybe our angel children have helped us find eachother knowing we need it. Knowing that they can't always be by our side but that we could lift eachother up. Who knows how it all really works, but I am so grateful that I know these women. Since we have to travel this road, why not travel it together.

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Typical Night

This is a typical night in the Larsen home. After dinner and clean up clean up, we usually find ourselves just hanging out together. This especially happens on Sunday nights which is what these pictures are from. We all found ourselves in Ethan's office listening to music and talking. Lots of times Ethan brings in a big bucket that has sample of wood flooring, tile, paint colors and all sorts of other things. This time the girls found these really cool safety goggles and put them on making fun of eachother. I decided since they looked so beautiful we needed a picture of them. We had to get one of Reagan too. I think she thought she was pretty funny! I love getting to just hang out and enjoy eachother.
"Mothers hold their children's hands for a short while but their hearts... Forever."