3 to 6 months

The first 3 to 6 months after a loved one passes away those that are mourning are in a state of denial. At least that I what I have heard, and I have to say for me it is partly true. I do find myself walking around wondering if this is really how it is going to be for the rest of my life here on earth. It is like my brain just can't fathom that Kamber really isn't here and won't ever be here for the rest of my earth life. I just doesn't seem possible that this is really true. These thoughts and feelings are so weird to experience. I have noticed since Kamber died that my brain is total mush. I was an airhead before, but man am I one now. I sure you all can tell by the quirky things I say in my posts and my spelling from time to time. It seems that even the simple things are so hard for me to do now. I have so many good intentions and ideas and I just can't focus on them long enough to get them done. Thank goodness I have family that is so understanding of my airhead things I do.
So am I in denial or is it that I just don't feel that Kamber is that far away? I feel as though she never left, even though we don't see her or hear her we can still feel her sweet spirit here with us. There are times I feel her a little more distant, but never to far that I feel she is completely gone. Maybe this is Heavenly Fathers way of helping us cope with her loss and showing us he never leaves us alone. It is a pure love he gives us and I am grateful he allows us to still feel our sweet Kamber with us always.