Sometimes you have days like Sunday 2 weeks ago and just fall to your knees, shaking and crying. Pleading with your Heavenly Father to take away the pain and the loss.
And then you have days like today when you remember the early stages of grief and remember how special those days were when your testimony of your Heavenly Fathers was strengthened during the most horrible time in your life. It's a day you can see clearly and know even though she is gone what a blessing is was to have her then and now.
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she is beautiful. You are inspiring. we love your family!
I look back on the days when I had first lost Elizabeth. I realize now how much my Father in Heaven carried me through. I didn't realize it then. In fact, I felt so alone. But I am thankful for those blessings that I experienced - even if I didn't realize them until later. But I have days even now when I find myself on my knees, crying. Why do things like this have to happen ? It's not fair. But when I find myself in that " Why, why, why " mindset, I have to pull myself out. It's a bad road to go down. We just have to lean on our Heavenly Father and put all our trust in Him. Love you Jen : )
I recently looked in the back of a book where I wrote a bunch of "blessings" and "lessons I've learned from our experience losing our son". I wrote these probably the week after his death. Crazy, but yeah, that's how it is. I sometimes look at those and laugh like ha ha, boy, was I in for a big surprise!! But now, I seem to have more and more days where I can realize what I was thinking when I wrote those blessings.
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