Prayers

I have said many prayers through out my 31 years of life. Some have been those simple prayers of help me find my keys or help me do good on a test. Some prayers a little more in depth giving thanks, Thank you for this new little child in our family, thank you for our safety. Or the really really big ones, thank you for letting my dad live another 6 years, help heal from his death, or please don't take Kamber from me, help me understand why, and please take this pain away. We all say these prayers from time to time in our lives. Hopefully we are talking with our Father in Heaven every day. It took my dad dieing for me to start doing that. I would be lieing if I said that my prayers were always extremely sincere. I also have many times that the same words come out day to day. I really do mean what I say every time but sometimes it becomes routine. Hopefully you understand what I mean. I've started reading the Book of Mormon again. I have read it through a couple of times but have realized that I never really started from the very beginning. I don't think I have ever read through the introduction page or the testimonies of the Three witnesses or the Eight, I know I have read Joseph Smiths testimony, but then I think I also had skipped the Brief Explanation before 1Nephi. Anyways, in doing so it has got me thinking of my testimony. Where am I at with it right now. I know I have said before that when Kamber died that my testimony had been shattered on the floor.Some of those pieces I picked right back up pretty fast. It was easy to remember how I felt and what I believed. My faith in prayer seemed to waiver. I didn't know if I trusted that if I prayed that Heavenly Father was really listening and if he was, I wasn't quite sure I would like any of the answers and that maybe he was mixing me up with someone else prayers. My faith in this process has been a work in progress. I have had some of the most intense prayers through this process and some of the neatest feelings during this time, but still a part of me was ready for that one time that things would fall apart again. My testimony is being strengthened everyday as I try. Tayler has been playing volleyball for a little over a year now. She is quite a good little player for her age. She has actually been playing with 11 and 12 year olds at age 10. She recently has been moved up to a 13-14's team and feel it will allow her to continue to progress even faster. Tayler was so excited when she first started and was in shock about it. She has had a lot of fun but, the past couple practice's she has come home in tears. She came from being the best on all her other teams and she was able to really shine to being a little fish in a big pond. It has been hard watching these kids jump higher and hit harder than her. Tayler is just learning how to spike and set well and these kids got that down. She has been discouraged and her confidence has been wavering. We have had talks with her to pick her back up and she is a trooper and is outside practicing everyday to improve. One talk I noticed I never had with her was to pray for Heavenly Fathers help. Duh, why haven't I thought of that? Maybe because of my faith in it. So this is something I figured I better work on a little more if I'm going to encourage Tayler to put her faith and prayers to the test. I know with all of Tayler's work that Heavenly Father will answer a sincere pray for Tayler to help with something that is so important to a 10 year old. We have to put forth the effort and I know that Heavenly Father will answer. Tayler is an amazing girl I'm lucky to have her. So as she puts forth her faith and creates away for her testimony in prayer to be strengthened, I will do the same little by little.