I'm sure everyone has heard the song by David Cook "The Time of my Life." I have never paid much attention to the song till the other day. I have it on my Ipod and I really do not remember putting the song on it. So yesterday I was running along and this song came on and my thoughts started turning round and round in my mind. I thought that this song totally apply's to my life right now. It talks about picking up the pieces in our lives and changing. This is the time of our lives. Well, since I feel that my life has been shattered into a million little pieces I'm now at this time in my life that I have the choice what I am going to do with these pieces. This is a major turning point in my life and in my families lives. Are we going to pick up these pieces and become more loving, compassionate, forgiving, Christ like people? Or are we going to let this send us down a dark tunnel and never make our way out and become bitter? This is the time of our lives. Just because I choose to try and go down the better road doesn't mean I won't be sad or even angry at the situation at times. I doesn't mean that I am over the loss of Kamber because I feel I never will, I will always long for her and have a sad place in my heart. I can learn to become a better person, so I can work along side her in her mission. We have to grieve but we don't have to be stuck in all the horrible feelings for the rest of our lives. It will take time and it will be hard but one thing I know for sure, we will endure.
I have put the song on my play list if you would like to hear it.
3 comments:
It's so amazing that you're able to take a step back from the pain and look at these two choices you have. I'm sure it's hard because no matter which one you chose it can't bring Kamber back. It's incredible that you can pick the better but probably harder of the two. I'll think to myself sometimes "what if Tanner died, what if one of my sisters or btother died" I find myself almost threatening God, saying "if that ever happens I'm done. I'd be so mad, I'd never talk to you again." And that is so so wrong of me. I'm just really amazed that you're able to be so teachable, understanding, and willing to see the best. Thanks for the example.
Wow, Jenn, that is a great point you make. I truly feel everyone comes to some point or trial in their life that they can choose to let it beat them and make them miserable, or they can learn from it, pick up the pieces and go on as much better people. I know that is what you guys are doing, and even though you have hard or down times, it doesn't mean you aren't tackling this challenge the right way. Thanks for your words today!
Thanks for sharing this and for sharing that song. You are doing what is best for your Family, but also what is best for YOU ! After I read this post, I thought about what Christ said " I never said it would be easy. I only said it would be worth it " That applies so much to my life right now too.
I want you to know that after I talked to you, I decided I needed to change my attitude. If you can be strong and make it through the hard times ( even if it is one day at a time ) then I can too. I have changed my attitude and sometimes I have to try really hard to keep that going, but I am doing it ! I actually feel like I have hope sometimes. And I am starting to feel like the Lord has opened the door a bit, just to check in on me. But that is worth so much since I haven't felt him at all these past few months.
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