kamber: I miss my sweet girl

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

I miss my sweet girl

I miss my blond haired beauty. I don't feel depressed about it today nor do I feel that I am going to cry, I just miss her. I miss seeing her run around me in circles and hearing her talk. But today I feel I can endure the missing since I have to. I feel that she is near, not to far today. I know that she is happy and doing important work. Maybe since I feel her a little closer today, it is because she misses me too and she just wants to be near. Maybe she misses me picking her up and kissing her cheeks. Maybe she misses me telling her I love her and adoring her. Maybe it is missing me smile at her because of how happy she makes me and that makes her smile. A smile is a little harder to come by most days but I feel today I can even though I miss Kamber. I hope she can feel how much we all love her and can't wait to be with her again.

Kamber, we love and miss you sweet heart. I can feel you near, please know you make me happy!

Happy Birthday to Kamber's Daddy and my sweet Husband!

6 comments:

Kami Milliron said...: I have those days too. I have had more of those days lately than the days I cry. I hope that means I am healing. I fasted for healing a few Sundays ago. I prayed that I could move on, but that Ellie wouldn't be sad that I wanted to move on. I just need to find the person I used to be.; April 8, 2009 at 9:24 AM
Mary-Sunshine said...: I am sure she misses you and loves you. I was just thinking about that, if Hevenly Father and Jesus Christ miss us and want us to return home, then of course our loved ones that are home already and anxisouly waiting for us to come and be with them!; April 8, 2009 at 12:43 PM
Burton Family said...: Thank you for your kind message on my blog yesterday. It really made me smile to hear from another angel mommy. I have always felt a sweet connection to your beautiful Kamber (we share the same birthday and)(her angel day is one of my other daughter's birthday's also). My 3 ear old giggles whenever I pull up your blog and she sees that cute grin on Kamber's face. Thanks again for reaching out.
Ashlee (angel Jada's mom); April 8, 2009 at 1:46 PM
Brittany said...: ya. i know. thinking of you; April 8, 2009 at 8:00 PM
Alishia said...: I'm so glad Kamber is taking care of you. I agree that she misses you as much as you miss her. Maybe even more. Hang in there and know how much we all love you!!; April 12, 2009 at 9:17 PM
Barrett, Melinda, Angel Trinity, and Baby Zander said...: Who wouldn't miss such an amazing little girl! She's beautiful, she's such a cutie, and I wish she was still here running circles around you. I hope our babies are missing us as much as we're missing them, and I too look forward to having Trinity's arms wrap around me...gosh I miss that sooooo much!

Thinking about you & Kamber...I'm always here if you ever need me.

Love ya; April 14, 2009 at 11:52 PM

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It was July 25th 2008 and it was a great day. All the kids were getting along with eachother. Ethan and I were going on vacation with a few friends and we were to leave at 5:00p.m. that evening. At about 11:00 a.m. I started packing for the trip. I caught Kamber out back playing with the hose with her cousin a couple of times. The last time Ethan and I went out back to get after the girls for playing in the hose. Ethan sprayed the girls and we chased them all back inside. Ethan went into his office and I went back into our room to pack. It was a short time after this that Kamber some how made it into the pool area. We can't figure out how it happened, we have a gate around our pool shut and locked. Nobody had been in the pool area in days. We lost site of Kamber for a few minutes but this was enough time for her to fall in the spa part of our pool and drowned. I had gone into Ethans office and said something to him and turned around to find my niece crying. I knew. I ran straight to the pool and didn't see her and then caught a glimps of her leg in the spa. It took forever to get the pool fence open , but I ran as fast as I could and pulled her out. Ethan ran in and started CPR, I called 911. The Fire Depatment came fast. They worked on her and then headed to the hospital. We already knew she was gone. I could feel her comforting arms around me. We raced to the hospital where we watched them work on her for about 10 more minutes. She was gone. They let me hold her for about 2 hrs till the medical examiner came to get her. I felt a small amount of peace and I thank my Heavenly Father for that. It was her time to return home. We are grateful for the 2 1/2 years Heavenly Father let us enjoy the beautiful person she is. We will be with her again as a family and I can't wait to raise her again. Her sisters miss her dearly, but they know she not far away and she is safe. We love our valiant angel!