There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of Kamber. She is the last thing on my mind before I go to sleep and the first thing when I wake. I think of her and then it quickly goes away for a moment while I hurry and get my girls ready for school in the morning. The thoughts of her quickly return on my way home from dropping my girls off. I remember the morning rides with Kamber in the back seat wanting to open the gate when we returned home from dropping the girls off for school. As soon as I get back home I race to clean up the house as fast as I can before Brookie wakes, which isn't long. While I am cleaning thoughts of Kamber always enter my head. The thoughts that usually swirl in my mind are often of the day she died, the week leading up to the funeral, the dressing of her,viewing, and funeral. I wish my mind wouldn't focus on these sad things, which wasn't always sad. There were many very spiritual times during that week. I wish that more often that I would think of the time that she lived. The thoughts of her running around, laughing, playing, being silly, and being naughty, Oh! I would take naughty over being gone.
Thank goodness those sad thoughts pass and I can think and focus on the happy times. My girls make it easy for that to happen especially Brookie. She doesn't look like Kamber's twin but she acts just like her. It blows my mind how similar they are. We love that we get to see those traits in Brookie. It would be sad to never see the silly traits of Kamber ever again.
I am grateful for my quite mornings to think of Kamber and then the afternoon and evenings when my family reminds me of things that I may have forgot. I love my family, each person is so special and serves a very special purpose in our home.
6 comments:
Beautiful! Thanks for sharing. I'm the same with Wyatt...not a day goes by without thinking of him. So many, many moments each day are spent thinking of him and the time we had with him. I'm sure our angels think about us probably even more than we can of them.:)
Oh how I know this all to well. How can we not think about our kiddos we lost? They are so sweet and so dearly missed. Hugs to you!! Im sorry you have to deal with your loss. Kamber was a beautiful little girl!
I can feel your sadness Jen. I wish I could focus more on the happy moments with my Dad, but I am starting to focus more on him being gone.
It has been almost 7 years since I lost my Mia and not a day goes by that I haven't thought of her. In ways I'm glad for the thoughts everyday just because I never want to forget. It is sometimes so hard to not think of her death and the day she died, even now. Your Kamber is such a sweetie. I often pray or sing in my mind so I don't get too carried away with the sad thoughts. I like you, try to remember the spiritual times when I know she was close. Thinking of you - Nicole, Mia's mom ^i^
she will always have a special place in our heart too even as the time goes by. Matt's little girl friend.. I know that he misses her following him around and greeting him at the door. I know I miss her greeting me at the door when I come over. thanks for sharing your feelings.
You don't know me, and I hope it is okay that I leave you a comment. Crazy how life is, and how amazing at the same time. Almost 2 and 1/2 years ago, I lost my baby girl too... Her name was Kamberlie as well, and we too called her Kamber. She had just barely turned 3. I googled her name and came across you- hope you don't mind me reading your blog. It is nice to know that I am not alone in my grieving- I can relate all too well! Thanks for sharing!
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