Monday I went into the doctor for my 36 week appointment. In a lot of ways I feel the time has flown by, but by the evenings I am miserable and it feels like this pregnancy is never ending. We all love our last months check ups don't we! NOT,Very uncomfortable, but nice to know that the end is coming soon.
With the past 2 pregnancies my doctor has done an ultra sound around 37 weeks to see how big my babies are getting since my Kylie was over 9 lbs. Each time my babies seem to get bigger. Kamber was 8.12 at a week and a half early, then Brookie 8.8 at 2 1/2 weeks early. So Monday we did an ultra sound and my boy is 8.1 and I am 36 weeks and a few days. I had a feeling he was a big baby and what do you expect with Ethan being his daddy. I love Ethan's build, he has a very large strong frame. I love that he is 6'5 and muscular without even trying. I love that Ethan is athletic and most everything comes easy for him. I hope my boy is a lot like him. So far it looks like his body type will be!!!
Have you heard of white boys being wimpy? That is what I hear, at least if they are born early their lungs have a harder time than any other race. My doctor wants to induce me next week for fear of how big my boy will get if we just let me go. So early next week I will be poked in the stomach to get the amnio fluid to test his lungs. No numbing mind you and if you know my fear of needles then you know that it is a scary thing for me. I've been through worse though, it is called labor. That is coming soon and it is scary and exciting at the same time. :/
Our little boy as of now is scheduled to make an appearance next Thursday! I still have a hard time realizing we are having another baby let alone a boy. I worry that everything will go well. Will I really leave the hospital with another one in my arms?Am I really going to be able to keep all the rest of my children on earth with me? I've had four children with me once before and it seemed that right as I admit that four children was quite hard,one was taken. I still hope not for reasons of me not being able to adjust easily to 4 kiddos running through the house. Just one of the many questions that have run through my head since Kamber's death. So when my girls walk into the room to meet their new brother I will count three of them, and the picture at the hospital will be with 3 girls holding a baby. Same picture as last time even though 5 children will be in the room one will be missing in the picture, that makes me sad. BUT, at the same time who gets to have a true angel, one of your own to send a new special spirit to a family. I know not many, but we do. I know Kamber will be by our side and by the side of our sweet little one as he leaves our Heavenly Fathers arms and into ours. For this I am grateful and continue to try and focus on. It is such a bitter-sweet time for us with only days away from Kamber's passing. Heavenly Father works miracles and so I am sure this is how it is all meant to work out. The remembrance of life before this earth and life after death all tied together for one purpose, which is to return to our Heavenly home.
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I felt the Spirit very strongly when Josh was born. I am not sure if my Dad and / or Elizabeth were in the room, but I like to think they were. I have no doubt that sweet Kamber will be there. This is her first baby brother : ) I can only imagine the send off that little guy will get.
I had three amnio's when I was pregnant with Elizabeth. It does hurt, but not in like a screaming in pain kind of way. It's just uncomfortable. You will cramp slightly, but not terrible cramps or anything. The needle is the scariest part, so avoid looking at that if you can. Just hold your husbands hand ( or whoever is with you ) and close your eyes and just breathe and relax. It is over in a couple seconds. Call or email me if you need to chat - heavens knows I have been a pin cushion many times before : )
Oh and keep me posted on that big boy ! I cannot wait to see pictures : )
I wonder if it is possible for you to get the steroid shots for lung maturity. My son had "Wimpy White Boy Syndrome" being born at 36wks3days. He needed surfactant and was on CPAP for three days. He had oxygen for another week. I couldn't even hold him for the first three days, all because he struggled so much from "prematurity." I had an amnio done with Bridget (ouch - and THREE pokes) and got a SUPER HIGH result, showing her lungs were mature. But then she had a pneumothorax that caused her so much trouble when she was born. That is another complication from early delivery. So I just feel worried for you with the need to deliver early for size. I am glad you have your doctor keeping a good eye on things. Good luck on Thursday.
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