Quite the Ride, It's Been a While

The last post was Tayler about to have a Birthday, Memorial day was one it's way and that we are having another baby. Lots and lots of things have happened since then. I guess posting wasn't too high on my priority list. I wish I would do better, but to be honest it was kind of nice not having this on the list of things to do. I do love journaling and since Kamber's passing have realized how important it really is. Heaven forbid one of my kids or grandkids lose a child, I want them to look back at my records and see how we continued living and be able read my emotions and hopefully it would help. Or just for others to see that we are a family just like their own with flaws, happy times, and hard. So with that said, here is an update.

Tayler turned 10 on May 30th and of course wanted to have a swimming party. So her wish is my command and swimming is what we did.

She had fun playing with her sister Kylie and a ton of her cousins! It was a great day!

As of today I am 21 weeks pregnant. In some ways the pregnancy is flying by and in others it is slowly passing. We have had complications during the whole first half which has made this time a little worrisome. As of now my doctor feels we are out of the woods. For a while there was a huge chance that I would lose the baby, but the problems with my uterus are healing up very well and things are looking up for now. Ironically I had this same problem with Kamber at the same time in my pregnancy. Kamber and this baby have proven to be fighters. I would have to say that as well as you can see on ultrasound pictures this baby looks similar to Kamber, but who knows. One thing we do know is that we are having another girl! It blows my mind, 5 girls and one lonely boy. Max definitely is going to be spoiled by all is sisters.

Just before the 4th of July we headed to Huntington Beach with my sister in law Candi and her family. We had an absolute blast spending a week with them. We hit the beach almost every day and threw in the Swap Meet one of the days. It was a lot of fun and really quite relaxing!

Mr. Max had a Birthday on July 23rd! He turned 1 yrs. old. It is amazing how fast time flys by. He is growing up so fast and it makes me sad. We all are really enjoying every minute with him. He is a very happy little boy and has brought so much joy and happiness to our family. He has been walking for a month now which makes him the first child to walk before a year old. He is quite funny and I think he knows it. He is all boy, no doubt about it and I love it. We love you little man!

Last of the post but not least. Today marks 3 years since our Kamber passed away. Being busy up till this point I think has been really good for us. I haven't felt all the anxiety I usually feel in all the days prior, but I think our bodies definitely know. I have been emotional and feel very numb and shaky today. I find myself fighting back the tears and my heart feels like it has been ripped out all over again. It is still interesting to me how some days it is easier to handle than others. Last year I think having Max made this day so much easier and even today looking at him and my girls makes me so grateful amidst the grief. We really are blessed and have much to look forward to as our family continues to grow. But as a family we will never forget today and the sadness it brings losing our Kamber. We will always miss her till we are reunited with her again. We love you sweetheart!