Thanks for the comments yesterday. One sweet lady said in her comment about how many say they are amazed by my strength and then she says" I bet you don't think you have strength, do you?" I would like to answer this question. Many do say that I have much strength,that they are amazed by my faith. What I write in my posts are truely how I am feeling and what I know to be true. It is not me being bigger than I am or what I would like to be. If you notice there are many times my posts start out about how sad I am and by the time I get half way through writing them I have a peace that comes over me that reminds me who I am what I am here for and reassures me of Heavenly Fathers plan. I don't feel it is my strength, but the strength of my kind Heavenly Father and a sweet angel child up in heaven. Faith does play a major factor in my survival. I have learned to do this from a young age since the time that my dad got sick and died. That all started when I was 7 yrs. old and my dad passed when I was 13. He was my best friend and he was taken, but I know it was best for him so he did not have to suffer anymore. Therefore, I learned to rely on my Savior at a very young age since I felt totally alone. Death of a loved one and hard trials can do one of two things to a person: It can make you miserable or make you a better person. I choose to try my best for it to make me a better person. I can easily see how it can make you miserable. It has done just that for some people in my life. I wish I could change their feelings but it is not for me to change.
So is it strength that I have? Maybe, but I like to call it surviving. I'm doing the best I can for myself and others. If my "strength" helps others come one step closer to their Heavenly Father, family and people they care about then it is worth it. Thanks for your comments and know that I do rely a lot on your strength to. Knowing others care helps me a lot. Alisha, I love the thought that 2 months down is really two months closer to the time I get to be with Kamber.
Lots of Love to everyone!
2 comments:
jen, what can i say... you truly are amazing. your "survival" is encouraging and contagious. your testimony is so sweet. i know kamber is with you all the time, that is a gift as a mother, you get to be with your children forever. i love Heavenly Fathers plan, how reassuring to know that Kamber is only away for a short while. 2 months really felt like 2 years, but at the same time 2 months does seem like a lot of time...2 months closer to reuniting in the physical sense because you know that you and Kamber are still together in spirit. we love you guys, and we love our little Kampers.
I love that you have been able to use the strength from your previous trials to help you currently. I think a lot of times people think - uuugg, not again, I CAN NOT do this again, which I am sure you have felt at times, but instead of giving up you are so strong and I love you for that. You are amazing to me. Also, I know that Kamber and your dad are having a great time together in heaven. Everytime I hear Brad Paisley's "When I get where I am going" I think of your situation. I know that their reunion in heaven was wonderful.
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