kamber: 6 Months

Sunday, January 25, 2009

6 Months

Today marks 6 months since our sweet Kamber passed away. It is interesting how your body just knows. Ethan and I couldn't help but wake up this morning with a sadness in our hearts and a longing to see Kamber running into our room as she did every morning. You don't know what we would have given to hear her sweet voice and see her beautiful smiling face! I didn't want to go to church today but somehow I mustered up the courage and took my girls and left Ethan at home with our sick baby Brookie. I found myself avoiding Sunday School and talking with a good friend of mine about life. Relief Society was good but made me nervous as the lesson started. I didn't want a lesson I would cry through, specially not today. I made it through and now I am safe in my home free to let my feelings out as I need.

Six months, has it really been that long and yet not long at all. It feels like eternity since I have seen Kamber.We just miss her today.

We love You Kamber!

9 comments:

The McNeil Family said...: I can't believe it has been 6 months since she left us to live with our heavenly father.. I hope that i can continue to comfort and help u as time goes on without Kamber.I miss her smiling face too, I feel bad cause i haven't been to the cemetery to visit her.; January 25, 2009 at 1:02 PM
Larsens said...: it was strange how it hit us as well. we woke up and watched our 'Tambern' movie today as we always do on Sunday and it was more emotional than it has recently been. someone asked me in church who gunnar was named after and i started to tell the story of Kamber but couldnt make it through. it was SO SO hard in Colorado to retell the events and live with it. since we have been here it has been good for me because i have been able to talk about it so much with people to are in the same situation... as you know spence doesnt like to talk about it, it makes him to sad. but today was a weird day. i always remember how long it has been because gunnar follows that day. he always reminds me of her and how perfect the two of those kids are, Kamber and Gunnar. Kamber left here and took her spirit back to the perfect place. Gunnar left that perfect place and came here with his perfect spirit. he reminds me of how perfect she was here and how perfect she is there. i always wonder how much the two of them communicate. hmm... try and get through the day and hope to see you soon; January 25, 2009 at 1:53 PM
Anonymous said...: I sit here in tears and not knowing why I can't understand why some things happen. I didn't even get to meet Kamber yet I feel like I know her sweet spirit through you. I've never missed someone I've never met but today I feel that way. I'm thinking of you.; January 25, 2009 at 3:02 PM
Kami Milliron said...: I am sorry you had a hard day. I did too. I went to the Cemetery and visited with my Dad and Elizabeth. I miss them both so much, but today I REALLY miss my Dad. I miss his council and wisdom. I miss his hugs and silly comments. I miss seeing Douglas run as fast as he can into Grandma and Grandpa's room to get some cookies from Grandpa.

My heart is a little sore today. Call / email me if you need to talk.; January 25, 2009 at 7:08 PM
Angela said...: My heart is with you.
love,
Angela
(Evan's Mom); January 25, 2009 at 7:35 PM
Alishia said...: I, too, thought of you today. Six months?! I bet you never thought you'd make it. I know each day is a struggle, but you're doing it. You're putting one foot in front of the other and you're getting through the day! We love you and still pray for you. We'll say extra prayers for you tonight!! We love you!; January 25, 2009 at 9:31 PM
Kip & Missy Anderson said...: Jenn,
I remeber feeling the same way at the six month mark of our baby girl delivered a still borne. I can't say that it was any easier at the year mark, but at year three, the darkness has faded. Greiving takes time.; January 25, 2009 at 10:45 PM
Andrea said...: It's beyond hard isn't it? I'm so sorry any of us have to go through this. Thinking and praying for you! You should be commended for going to church when it's sooooo hard. I know that feeling all too well. I'm glad relief society wasn't too hard. I finally asked to be put in primary to avoid relief society...and now the primary theme is "our eternal family" so many of the songs in the program are ones we sang at Wyatt's funeral. I guess there isn't any save place from our emotions. SO hard!
Love,
Andrea
Wyatt's mommy; January 26, 2009 at 9:11 AM
Mary-Sunshine said...: We miss you too Kamber!; January 26, 2009 at 1:03 PM

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It was July 25th 2008 and it was a great day. All the kids were getting along with eachother. Ethan and I were going on vacation with a few friends and we were to leave at 5:00p.m. that evening. At about 11:00 a.m. I started packing for the trip. I caught Kamber out back playing with the hose with her cousin a couple of times. The last time Ethan and I went out back to get after the girls for playing in the hose. Ethan sprayed the girls and we chased them all back inside. Ethan went into his office and I went back into our room to pack. It was a short time after this that Kamber some how made it into the pool area. We can't figure out how it happened, we have a gate around our pool shut and locked. Nobody had been in the pool area in days. We lost site of Kamber for a few minutes but this was enough time for her to fall in the spa part of our pool and drowned. I had gone into Ethans office and said something to him and turned around to find my niece crying. I knew. I ran straight to the pool and didn't see her and then caught a glimps of her leg in the spa. It took forever to get the pool fence open , but I ran as fast as I could and pulled her out. Ethan ran in and started CPR, I called 911. The Fire Depatment came fast. They worked on her and then headed to the hospital. We already knew she was gone. I could feel her comforting arms around me. We raced to the hospital where we watched them work on her for about 10 more minutes. She was gone. They let me hold her for about 2 hrs till the medical examiner came to get her. I felt a small amount of peace and I thank my Heavenly Father for that. It was her time to return home. We are grateful for the 2 1/2 years Heavenly Father let us enjoy the beautiful person she is. We will be with her again as a family and I can't wait to raise her again. Her sisters miss her dearly, but they know she not far away and she is safe. We love our valiant angel!